Running

I feel bad for running but then again I don't
I had to go 
Had to get out from under your spell 
I couldn't do it anymore
Drunken I love yous 
I couldn't do that anymore
My pride couldn't take it 
my mind couldn't shake it, shake you off 
So now I'm forced to deny it and try and fight it 
act like I never felt that way for you before
The affection you wanted I couldn't give you
My attention you stole it, I couldn't fix you
So I threw you away before you took over my heart completely 
And you had too much control over my emotions
with mind play and trickery
I knew you'd make a fool of me but I wanted to believe 
that you wouldn't deceive, that there was something genuine
we were something worth waiting for but instead I'm just running 
trying to outrun myself and the feelings I felt 
running away from you all the crazy shit that comes with you 
I won't feel bad for running